I started this blog with the idea of offering inspiration. Everywhere I go, I am told I am inspiring. Perfect strangers tell me I am an inspiration. Is it because I went to law school at 50? That I built a successful solo law practice? Something I said? Some days I feel like the only thing inspiring about me is that I am still above ground!
What I meant to say is that I’m tired. I’m tired of being the inspiration. I’m tired of being a strong independent woman. I’m tired of being the role model. I’m tired of thinking, “if you only knew.” If you only knew the messy parts of my life; the hurts, regrets, and sorrows. If you only knew, would you think less of me?
I am guessing you would not think less of me. You would think I’m only human. Just as I wouldn’t think less of you if I knew the messy parts of your life—the hurts, regrets, and sorrows.
Like the beat of our hearts, our feelings and circumstances go up and down. When it’s down, we know it will go up again. If we could graph it like an ECG, we would see the rhythm. That rhythm means we are alive and functioning.
Know there will be better days. Rest, sleep, meditate, and run at top speed. And when you’re tired and down, know as I write this that’s life.
I will think about that tomorrow. Tomorrow will be a better day. Tomorrow the sun will come out. Tomorrow I will once again live to be an inspiration.
So will you.